Pregnancies

One of the easiest and hardest decision i had to make in my life was choosing to live in the United States.
"Why? you have better here than in a developing country." you might ask.
i must say that my life here is just what i wanted and more but leaving family and your old life behind is never easy.
When Ben and i had to come back to MI. it was the easiest part for me.
The hardest part started when we bought a home and i had to adjust.
There was no choice whether i wanted to adjust, i just HAD to.
I think many couples say that the hardest part of marriage are the first 2 years of your lives together but i have a different experience.
I dont feel or think that Ben and I would have had such a hard time if we were born in the same country.
Those first 2 years of our lives were hard because i was just extremely homesick and i didn't want to let go of my past.
So anyways, with making this decision i find myself in hard situations that makes me think of "what if...".
With that said, my 43 year old sister is pregnant!!!!!
The second oldest sister and the youngest sister are pregnant at the same time, and the best part, SHE IS EXPECTING HER FIRST GIRL!!! (after 3 boys)
I can only imagine how happy she must feel. I mean, i am happy for her, VERY happy so i can only imagine how she is feeling.
I will be giving birth some time in April and she will be having a cesarean some time in May.
She has had 3 previous cesareans so i doubt she will be allowed to try a VBA3C in Bolivia.
She is still in shock that i willingly wanted a drug free birth with Lulu and she confessed that we her second boy she got up to 5 cm. and couldn't handle the pain.

The saddest part is that i am wishing with all of my heart to be at home within the next couple of months to give birth there and give my mother the privilege to witness 2 more births of her grandchildre.
Now, this is the part that makes it hard for me to live here in the USA.
I would love to share those special pregnancy moments with my sister but i have to be content with the decision i made 5 1/2 years ago.

Another thing i must tell you all, is that none of the "Terceros" girls had giving birth to boys AND girls. We mostly stick to one gender.
My sister Gloria says "Mom and Dad never taught us of VARIETY" and i have to laugh at that because she is right.
We might have broken "the curse" TWICE this year or maybe NOT since Baby B's gender is a secret until birthing day.
I will let you know in April for sure. :D


Hugs.

PS. I cannot wait to update you all with a picture of baby girl. I hope my sister remembers to send me a picture or something to show off.
Longing for the month of May already.